The Glimpse of My Past

Diane’s P. O. V.

“And I left just this morning. I didn’t wake you up because you looked so tired. I also have something to take care of in the office, but you know what? I had to finish my work at the soonest possible time to get back to you right away.” Liam’s stunning dimple manifested while explaining the whole story of what happened last night. 

“Besides, you might still be mad at me… I’m kind of nervous that you would sneak and suddenly run away from Nana the moment you woke up,” he additionally remarked. Liam was driving me home by now. I was wearing his gift-a chiffon, short-sleeved, and knee-length dress in black. It has a stylish zipper in front and the dress itself was indeed elegant.

I was glad that we fixed everything, and I realized that the problem wasn’t him but me. Now, I had something new to exert an effort and be matured on-I should not nurture that one flash of darkness called jealousy and strive to be a better girlfriend for him.

While pouting my lips, I had this conviction not to ever treat love as a possession. But it was already too late because remorse had done its job, so I had no other choice but to move on and put the lessons to good use.

However, I couldn’t help but feel guilty knowing how Liam protected me and fought those bastards, who were touching my body from that nightclub. If only I could bring back the time, I would have been sobered enough. 

As much as I wanted to see how Liam engaged in fight scenes to guard me, the thought of those unknown men who touched my private body parts was already making me cringe. I suddenly felt that I was taken advantage of without me knowing, but it was indeed my fault anyway. I should have protected my body in the first place.

While Liam was telling his side of the story earlier, I couldn’t even turn my attention towards other things. I was only ogling at his face, captivated by his enthralling spell. He was so handsome, most especially whenever his pleasing dimple came out.

Liam was undisputedly a stunning heartthrob, and now, I promised to be devoted not to ever let go of him. He was all mine, although I didn’t even know how he got so blinded by my beauty. It was funny, but I couldn’t help but ask how I managed to catch this big fish. He was head over heels in love with me.

Well, was it all because of my incomparable charms that other women don’t have? Oh, I think I should buy Liam a helmet on our birthdays together, or else he might change whatever he thinks of me once he hits his head on the wall! I slyly smiled at the thought. Not soon enough, my cunning smile became victorious.

So, that Isabelle, who I even called Sisabelle when I got drunk was indeed nothing for Liam. Well, the name Sisabelle suited her better for she was insane to the core! Liam just harbored some infatuation with that rice cake before, but he let her go and ended up entrusting her to Leandro.

Well, it was a good thing that Liam didn’t do that to me. Hell, no way! I would rather choose to become an old maid for the rest of my life instead of becoming Leandro’s girlfriend. Leandro and Isabelle suited each other if I must say.

It felt embarrassing that I got so jealous, crushed by mixed and overflowing emotions that prompted me to walk out yesterday, and even shoved Liam away… then, I got drunk and even went wild just to forget, all because of that desperate Isabelle? Infuriating!

Her face was so thick, and she must be completely out of her mind to declare a baseless claim that she was Liam’s girlfriend. She was so annoying, and if I were her, I would get ready the moment we faced each other again!

For that thought, I grimaced, narrowed my eyes, and crumpled my fists on my lap. Then, my fingernails lightly scratched on the hem of my black dress as if drawing an imaginary plan.

I was freaking sure that Leandro only used her as one of his baits to separate Liam and me. I could forgive her, but the next time that floured rice cake would kiss Liam in front of me ever again, even if she would only touch the tip of my boyfriend’s finger? Damn her, I wouldn’t stay still. I gnashed my teeth.

Her snow-white skin, which looked like a turnip, would be bloody red because I would not hesitate to peel, tear off, and scrape her alive. Don’t she ever dare mess with me again! Once was enough-it was already enough that I once cried and almost ruined myself because of that wicked witch.

Also, I would never let her humiliate me again. Because the next time she would do that? She hadn’t yet opened her mouth, but I had already smashed her face to the ground. I might be naive sometimes and let people win over me, but they would never want to see me executing my revenge.

Heaving a sigh, I would want to change the topic on my mind and forget about that lunatic bitch! I wanted to delete all of my hatred and just spoil myself with these happy moments with my boyfriend. Speaking of the thing Liam would never want to trade, did I really say that? I couldn’t remember anything at all.

It felt like my face was heating up with shame again. I seemed to be even more sensible when drunk because I could boldly say whatever I felt-whatever was inside me without any hesitation. Actually, it wasn’t even a big deal… but Liam was so happy that he could easily forget the other things that happened because of my stupidity.

My memories were limited until I passed out while snaking my body over the pole. After that, I couldn’t remember anything due to being sloshed. Intoxication stopped when I got enough sleep, and a hangover soon followed when I woke up earlier.

It was my first-time drinking alcohol last night, and I would never do that again. I learned my lessons already, so I didn’t want to repeat the same drunken mistake.

If Lorenz and Liam were not in the nightclub yesterday, I couldn’t imagine what might happen to me next. Perhaps, nothing could stop my nightmares from becoming real. Worse to what Nana had said earlier, I could have been raped.

“Hmm, did I really say last night that I will fight for you no matter what? I’m sorry, Liam. I actually don’t remember anything,” I honestly told him, yet I couldn’t help myself but smile slyly when I saw how he puckered his forehead while driving.

That one epic reaction as if Liam didn’t want to accept that I only mentioned it because I was in a state of drunkenness? I even wanted to burst and laugh out loud while looking at him. It was nice to see him this way, and I would even want to take a picture of him, so I could have a remembrance of how he reacted.

“Yes, that was before you vomited on my chest. You really can’t remember anything?” Liam’s frowns never left his forehead when he glanced at me.

“Nothing, no matter how much I dug my brain to remember it. I only remembered being with Lorenz last night-I got drunk, and that’s all. I didn’t even know that you went there for rescue,” I claimed. Last night, I got so wild and even drawn to too much intoxication.

Perplexed, I tried to remember everything, but it was all that I could wrap up inside my head. I even thought that it was Lorenz who caught me before I fell to the ground, but in reality, it was actually Liam.Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.

While closing my eyes tightly, I also massaged my temples to help me remember one more time. But crap, I couldn’t remember anything! Even those who lasciviously and cruelly touched my skin, I had a foggy memory in remembering them.

All I could remember was the unbeatable feeling while dancing on the pole last night like I was on cloud nine. Other than that, things were distorted and imprecise. Then, I opened my eyes.

I wanted to regret everything, but I could no longer do anything about it. The moment I worked in the club, I even wore a mask to hide my face. Men could only watch me while performing on the stage, but they would never be able to touch me.

But last night? I might have acted like a low-class type of woman who was close to giving all-the-way. I knew it was impossible, but I was hoping that those men didn’t touch the delicate parts of my body. I ended up heaving a deep sigh out of anguish.

Next time, Diane… you are definitely not allowed to drink alcohol! I scolded myself.

Liam suddenly stopped the car at the lay-by side of the road, and that somehow startled me. He unbuckled his seatbelt and held both of my hands while sincerely looking at me straight into the eyes. His dark-gray eyes were expressive, but all I could see were shades of regrets. Regardless, I felt like those stares were penetrating me… that I could melt at this moment.

Liam was a little bit stressed lately, and I really added to his problems all because of my useless jealousy. His eyes looked so tired, but that doesn’t even lessen my boyfriend’s handsomeness. He still looked so attractive and stunning, making me want to claim his gorgeous lips.

But what he told me next made me flinch…