Chapter 84
Chapter 84
Aidan's POV
I am tossing in bed with guilt. Pamela said she won't be able to come over tonight but promised to
come first thing tomorrow morning. I know she has not been in New York for weeks but Richard
informed me that she will be back today. It is past 11 pm already and I can't find sleep.
I am greatly troubled. It is as if I am feeling Anna's pain. It is as if the more her tears, the more I am
feeling hurt. I have no idea what is happening to me and why I am feeling this way. I know what I did is
wrong but I am not supposed to be feeling this hurt.
When I can take it no longer, I stand up and rush to the door. I throw it open before running down to
Anna's room. I don't care what happens, she needs to hear me out and accept my apology.
As I get close to the door, I am lucky to see Tania coming out with an unhappy expression, I use this
opportunity to enter before Anna will come to lock the door from behind again.
I close the door behind Tania who is surprised to see me. Anna is sitting on her bed, looking into space.
Another tear rolls down her eyes and I feel the same pain I felt minutes ago. I feel like moving closer to
her, to wipe her tears and comfort her.
But I know she won't allow me. I hurt her deeply. She will probably throw a tantrum if I touch her or she
might break my head in anger.
I realize Anna has been my wife for close to a year, yet we barely touch each other.
"Anna, I'm sorry", I beg, hoping she will give me a listening ear. She is silent and I feel it is her answer
for me to explain myself.
"I shouldn't have called you that. Please forgive me", I almost kneel down but I am quick to stop myself.
I can't imagine myself kneeling for Anna to forgive me. It will show how stupid I am.
She raises her head like she is just coming out of her trance. She wipes her tears.
"Aidan, you can go", her voice is calm but hoarse.
I don't understand what she means by I can go. Has she forgiven me already?
"I can go?"
"Yes, you can. There is nothing to be sorry about. I should have done this a long time ago but it's not
too late. I can do it now", she utters, looking at me squarely in the face.
She is talking in parables. What does she want to do?
"What do you want to do?"
She is silent for a while before saying. "I am leaving."
I can't believe what she is saying. I can't imagine her leaving the house. Who will take care of our
daughter and play the role of a mother? I can't even imagine life without her in the mansion when our
daughter is here.
"With my child." She adds as if reading my mind.
"What?!" I exclaim, with rising anger.
"Yes, Aidan and you can't stop me", her voice has added volume. It is no longer calm and it is not too
loud. She is looking defiant as if asking me to dare her.
I know I can't win her over with my stubbornness and anger. I need to be calm and patient, I also need
to beg her if that is what it will take.
"Come on, Anna. I did not mean for this to happen. Please don't go." I stand arrogantly, scratching the
back of my head.
"I have made up my mind that the next time you throw this sort of shit at me, I will leave and that is
what I am going to do. No one should stop me, if I stay any more day in here, I might end up killing you
or myself."
"What?!"
"Yes, I mean every word. So get out?"
"Anna, you can't do this. This is our....."
"Get out!" She screams, interrupting me. Her eyes become red suddenly and I can see how angry she
is. "Get out!"
"Fine", I surrender and walk out. When I am outside, I sigh heavily with a troubled and deeply hurt
heart. I have no idea why I keep ruining things for myself.
Everything was already going perfect until I suddenly became irate and jealous seeing Tony or
whatever his name is, which made me call her a bitch.
I walk dejectedly to the sofa and fall heavily onto it. I keep thinking of what to do to appease Anna but
nothing was forthcoming. I thought of Evelyn.
She hasn't called to acknowledge the help I rendered and I hope she is fine. I am thinking of giving her
a call first thing tomorrow morning if Pamela doesn't succeed in convincing Anna to stay. I don't want
her to go, especially for our baby. Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.
I pick up my phone to compose a text for Pamela. I need her to come as early as possible before Anna
will disappear into thin air with my baby.
While I am still thinking of what else to do with my back on the sofa and my face up, I don't know when
sleep eludes me.
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Anna's POV
I couldn't sleep a wink till dawn. I asked Tania to bring me Lily. I was scared that Aidan would take her
away so I won't be able to leave with her. I know I can't go to Tony with my child since he doesn't know
about her yet and I can't go to my mother because we are still not on good terms. I am hoping to lodge
in a hotel first before searching for a home online for me and my child.
I rise from the bed as early as 5 am to start packing my belongings when Pamela knocks on the door. I
didn't know she is back in New York.
Why is she here this early?
I open the door and we hug.
"When did you arrive?" I ask her.
She looks pointedly at me. I know I look miserable for crying too much last night. I turn away from her
and walk to the bed.
"You are going nowhere, Anna." She says with a tone of authority. I look at her with surprise.
When did Pamela become a fan of Aidan? She had always wanted me to date Tony. And there is one
good thing about leaving Aidan's home, I can continue dating Tony with no more fear.
"Pam, my mind is made up", I say instead of asking her what I intend to ask her.
"Do you have any idea what you are doing?" She raises a brow. I don't understand her.
"Can you give me one good reason why I should still be here?"
"Because he is your husband. Your child needs to know him as a father", she stresses.
"That was the major reason why we got married in the first place, what good has this brought to me
other than heartaches and insults? Someone somewhere appreciates me for who I am so give me a
good enough reason why I should still be stuck here when I can be happy with that person."
"This is all about Tony, right?" She peers at me. I did not say anything. "Have you told him you are
married?"
"No", I answer.
"Do you have any idea what he is going to do when he knows? You want to leave your home for him
when you don't even know him well enough?"
"Pamela, you and I know Tony well and you were also in support of our relationship, why are you
suddenly changing your opinion of him?"
"Because I feel he is not the one for you, I feel he is not good for you, I feel this is where you belong...."
"Can you even hear yourself out?" I chuckle lightly in disbelief. "This is where I belong? I belong to a
place where I don't have value? I belong to a place where they know nothing other than insults?"
"Aidan loves you", she blurts out.
I open my eyes wide. Then I begin to laugh. "Aidan loves me? Is that your definition of love?"
"I know it, Anna. Richard told me."
"Does Richard treat you like trash? If yes, then I will concur with what you have just said. How can a
man who hates seeing me love me? I tried to get close to him, I even tried to see if we could fall in love
but nothing worked and you expect me to believe this? Aidan can't love me, he is a cold man."
Pamela didn't say anything. She is just watching me. When I look away from her, a tear rolls down my
eyes and another follows. She pulls me in for an embrace and I burst into tears.