My honest reaction
Lily’s POV
“What does it say?”. Alex asked as it seemed his patience had worn out.
She walked towards me and held my hands. “Lily darling, I’m sorry but it was just a false alarm. The test is negative”.
“What do you mean the test is negative?”. Alex asked in a horse voice.
“She’s not pregnant”. Dr. Jones said.
Well I guess this was my fucking reality.
I couldn’t believe that the thought of someone that I had not seen or even felt inside me not being real could break me like this.
Before now I never wanted it to be true cause I was scared that I wouldn’t be a good mother or that I wasn’t ready but for just a second, I was a bit glad at the prospect of having a child.
Alex looked just as broken as I was but he just held my hands tightly and walked me back to the bed.
Dr. Jones followed closely behind us and took a seat at the stool close to us.
We all sat in silence for a while, Alex and I mourning what could have been, with Dr. Jones giving us a moment to gather our emotions.
I wanted to cry but what would I be crying over?, did I really want a baby so bad?, was this how much I wanted it?. I consoled myself with the fact that I didn’t have a miscarriage and we could continue trying for babies if we wanted them so much.
What’s the worst that could happen, it’s not like we were infertile right?.
I looked towards Alex again. He looked cold and expressionless. I guess this was the way he handled situations . The way I knew that he was feeling the same way I was, was the constant squeeze he game my hands every now and then.
Dr. Jones finally broke the silence as she ruffled through her bag.
“Ah, there it is”. She smiled as she had found her glasses that she apparently been searching for.
She cleaned and put them before picking up the test strips again to dispose them. “Now that this is out of the way, we need to look at other possible reasons.” She said as she walked to the bin.
“We can take..” she paused in her movement. “Hold on a second!!”. She exclaimed.
“What’s wrong Doctor”. Alex asked.
“I think I may have made a slight mistake earlier”. She said while grimacing.
“What mistake?”. Alex and I asked in unison.
She adjusted her glasses on her nose bridge and brought the test strips closer to examine them. ” The test actually came out positive”. She said while flashing is a guilty smile.
“That means what now!!”. Alex barked out.
She walked closer to me and held my hands again. I just sighed and looked away, I couldn’t bear to handle any more bad news. “Lily dear, the test actually came out positive and you’re pregnant”. She said with a little squeal.
For a moment, there was a long silence as Alex and I processed her words. Then, a slow smile spread across his face, lighting up his features with sheer joy. “Are you serious?, you’re not bluffing” he asked, his voice filled with wonder.
“Yes, I’m afraid I made a terrible mistake when I examined the test strip the first time without my glasses”. Dr. Jones responded with a guilty smile. “I’m sorry”. She said while rubbing my arms. “But you both are going to be parents!!”. She squealed again with happiness welling up in her eyes.
I just stood there for a minute, I couldn’t react just yet. I didn’t know how to take this information. One moment I was sad and devastated when I got the news that I wasn’t actually pregnant, wouldn’t that mean that I was actually expecting to be pregnant?, wouldn’t that mean that I’m supposed to be thrilled at this news.
I guess I was actually keeping my feelings and honest reaction until I knew how Alex felt about this.
I turned to look at him, but I couldn’t find him by my side. Dr. Jones had dropped my hands, picked up her bag that was close to the bed and moved towards the table in the room.
She had begun placing some other things there which I payed no mind to.
I looked around the room and found Alex sitting stoic on the bed with his face expressionless and without any form of emotion. I was so lost as I tried to figure out what he might be thinking and what were his thoughts concerning this new establishment.
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Alexander’s POV
After my outburst, I watched as Dr. Jones moved closer to Lily and held her hands. Lily let out a tired sigh and looked away from her. I wondered what was going through her mind but I was dying to know what Dr. Jones meant.
“Lily dear, the test actually came out positive and you’re pregnant”. Dr. Jones finally decided to speak with a little squeal. She looked so excited about the news maybe even more than us.
For a long time, there was a long silence as I just watched Lily. She looked shocked for a split second and then her breathing quickened. Was she not happy about this?.
After a while her breathing slowed down and she rubbed her stomach. The small gesture from her melted my heart and I didn’t even know when I blurted out the first thing that came to my mind.
“Are you serious?, you’re not bluffing” I asked.
“Yes, I’m afraid I made a terrible mistake when I examined the test strip the first time without my glasses”. Dr. Jones responded while flashing me a guilty smile.
I wanted to get mad and just blow out on her for making such a grievous mistake. It was certainly unprofessional and unethical. There was just something I hated more than incompetent people, there were incompetent people!!!.
“I’m sorry”. Dr. Jones spoke again, breaking my thoughts.
In that instant where I saw her rubbing Lily’s arms and Lily did not seem upset about the mistake, i decided to let it go. It seemed I understated the joy that Dr. Jones felt towards the news cause she just kept blabbing. “But you both are going to be parents!!”. Dr. Jones squealed again like a high school girl with joy twinkling in her eyes.
I rolled my eyes at her antics. It was totally unnecessary if you ask me.
I turned to look at Lily but there was still no reaction from her. She just stood there, quiet and unmoved. She looked to be deep in thought and I could tell from her facial expression that she was thinking of the pregnancy but what I couldn’t place in particular was the exact thing she was thinking of.
I couldn’t tell if she was happy or not but I knew for a fact that she was confused.
I couldn’t continue standing there and just watching, so I decided to take a seat.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
Dr. Jones had moved a bit away from us to perhaps give us some sort of privacy but I didn’t think it was necessary. It was hilarious how she tried to act busy by putting different unnecessary things on the table.
It appeared Lily had come back from la la land as she finally moved her body. She turned towards me and just stared at me. She looked like she wanted to say something to me but decided against it.
I decided to stop overthinking about whatever it was that was going through her mind and instead focus on what was going through my own mind. I was tired of avoiding and trying to run away from it.
I stood up abruptly from the bed, startling Lily. She watched me wide eyed in confusion as I walked briskly towards and pulled her in a tight hug.
“We’re having a baby?”. I asked again without hiding the excitement in my voice.
Lily nodded with tears of relief and happiness welling up in her eyes. “Yes, Alex. We’re going to be parents”. She said with a small chuckle.
Without warning, i engolved her into another hug, with my arms wrapped around her. “This is incredible news Lily.” I whispered into her ears. ” I can’t believe this is happening right now!”.
Lily laughed through her tears. “I didn’t think you were happy about it”. She admitted as she buried her face in my chest.
“Are you kidding baby?. I’m so sorry if I made it seem that way. I was just so surprised that I didn’t know how to react. You’ve made me so happy my love”. I said while pressing a kiss on her forehead.
Her beautiful eyes twinkled with happiness and it made her even much more beautiful. “I can’t wait to have a mini you”. I whispered between us.
Her cheeks turned a darker shade of red as she pushed my shoulder slightly. ” or maybe a mini you”. She argued back.
“I don’t care my love. So long as I’m having them with you”. I responded genuinely.
She looked at me with so much adoration and I could tell she was just as happy as I was about this.
We stared deeply into each other’s eyes for a minute that felt like decades. I couldn’t bear to have those enchanting lips staring right me without having a taste of them. I pulled her in abruptly earning a yelp from her and captured her lips in mine.
I could never get enough of her hypnotizing taste. I sucked on her bottom in a slow lazy pace, that she seemed to enjoy so much as her moans were all I could hear.
We stayed like that enjoying the feeling of each other’s mouth dancing against each other in indulgent unhurried motions.
Her hands went up into my hair, massaging through my scalp and boy did that drive me crazy.
I pulled away from her and buried my face in the crook of her neck. She smelled so delicious and it wasn’t making this situation any better. She had no idea what she was doing to me and that drove me crazier. “If we continue like this, you know where you would end up right?”. I asked with a sly smirk.
“No, I don’t”. She responded with a cheeky smile.
I grabbed her ass and squeezed lightly before planting a kiss on her neck. ” On all fours, bent over for me, while I shove my dick into your tight Little cunt until you cum so much that whenever you try to walk or do anything you would think of me.” I said in one breathe.
The only response I got from her was a loud moan of approval. I guess my pregnant wife’s hormones were active.
I blinked and looked around when I heard the sound of someone clearing their throat.
“I asked you a question”. Dr. Jones said while looking at me skeptically.
“What is it?”, I asked in a strained voice.
“I asked if it was okay to get some blood samples from your wife and run a lab pregnancy test too”. She was already holding a syringe and looked ready to go ahead regardless.
“Yeah, whatever”. I sighed.
She flashed a small smile before guiding Lily to the table. She took Lily’s hand and applied something on it.
All that time, Lily just kept staring at me. I wanted to look away but I couldn’t. I needed to watch her. I needed to see the pain I had caused her.
I wanted to give her a reaction. I wanted to do all that I imagined. That would have been my reaction if not worse because of how thrilled I’m feeling inside. It felt like fairytale to me that I was having a child with someone like Lily. I didn’t deserve her.
I wanted to show her how happy and excited that I was about all these but I just couldn’t. I did not know why but I couldn’t.
I can’t be that person for her. What if at all happens again. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.
“Alright Lily, Don’t forget all I said and don’t forget to come to the hospital regularly for check up”. Dr. Jones said while packing up her things.
“Alright Alex. Please take care of her, Make sure she doesn’t stress over anything, make sure she eats regularly and comes to the hospital for regular check up”.
“Yes Doctor”. I responded.
I walked her to the door when she was done gathering her things. I stood at the door, with my hand at the handle, contemplating what my next action would be.
I didn’t want to hurt her.
“This is good news”. I turned towards her and immediately she heard my words, her eyes lit up. She looked so beautiful.
“This is good so that the press would stop writing blogs about our fake marriage.”. But as soon as they did, they dimed again and it was all my fault.
“What!!?”. She screamed at me.
I looked away from her. “You remember the reason why we tried making babies right?, so the press would actually believe we married for love. I hope it works when the news gets out so that all these wouldn’t be in vain”.
I looked towards her when she had been silent for a while and I wish I didn’t.
I had to leave. “Take care”. That was the last thing I said before turning around and walking out the door.
I never intended to hurt her but I was scared.