Chapter 164
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“On the day of Lim Toby’s wedding to you, I was distraught and sitting alone by the river, weeping, when Lim Toby suddenly approached me, hoping that I would cooperate with him in a play. From then on, I was ostensibly his public lover, but in reality remained just a minor employee of The Lim Family, with whom he had no dealings, and he said his aim was to force you to leave The Lim Family, to leave him, and to find the happiness that was yours.”
Cheng Lydia’s heart throbbed again as Chung Grace took her hand and held it tightly.
“But you never left, no matter how much he hurt you and abused you. Then later, he asked me to help him find a college girl who would be willing to have a child as a surrogate. It was all I had ever dreamed of in my entire life to marry him and have his child, and I begged him to give me that chance. I ended up getting what I wanted, a successful artificial insemination, and although I couldn’t marry him, and although he may not be able to wait until our child is born, being able to have his child was half of my dream, and it was enough.”
Chung Grace felt Cheng Lydia’s hand tremble and she tightened her grip hard.
“What are you trying to say?” Chung Grace looked at Feng Ann with cold eyes, “You know Lydia is pregnant, so you deliberately came to irritate her, right?”
Feng Ann shook her head, tears sliding out of her eyes, “I know Ms Cheng is pregnant, and I know this is not the right time to tell her this, but Lim Toby he … can’t wait.”
Cheng Lydia’s tears finally slipped out of her eyes and she wiped a tear from her cheek as she stared up at Feng Ann blandly, “So what? What’s it to me?”
“Yeah, it’s really none of your business, and I wish I could have been there for Lim Toby in his last days.” Feng Ann wiped a cold sweat from the corner of her forehead, “But Lim Toby he doesn’t need me, and the person he misses day and night is not me, and the person he cries out for in his dreams is not me …”
Feng Ann huffed backwards, her palm gently brushing up against her stomach.
“What’s wrong with you?” Chung Grace surveyed her face flushed with pain.
“I …” Feng Ann grabbed Cheng Lydia’s palm and begged through the pain, “Go see him, please.”
“I’m not going!” Cheng Lydia stormed at her, forgetting where she was, “Why should I go to see him? He didn’t need me when he was sick, and he’s less likely to need me when he’s dead!”
“He really misses you …”
“Who is he to think of me? He doesn’t deserve to think about me, go back and tell him that I never want to see him again in my next life.” Cheng Lydia said and bawled loudly.
She’d never understood why Lim Toby had acted like a different person after the wedding, not touching her, ignoring her, and even trying to bully her. And when he needed her the most, she’d actually just turned around and left.
Lim Toby, if he really loved her, how could he not know what she wanted? If he really loved her, how could he not know that she would actually prefer to be by his side properly in his last days, no matter how hard the days were.
Was she such an ungrateful, selfish person in his mind?
“Lydia,” Chung Grace took her hand, “Don’t worry about being sad yet, she looks a little off, she’s probably in labor.”
Chung Grace pointed a jaw at Feng Ann, whose face was already contorted in pain, from across the room.
Cheng Lydia took a look at Feng Ann, who really looked like she was in labor, and scrambled to dry the tears on her face and grabbed her cell phone to call the emergency number. With that, she and Chung Grace helped her towards the cafe entrance.
“It hurts … I can’t walk.” Feng Ann held onto the stair railing as more cold sweat poured out.
“Who told you not to stay in the hospital for your delivery and come here to talk nonsense, even if you can’t walk.” Chung Grace said in no good humor.
Cheng Lydia calmed down quite a bit, teaching her to breathe deeply as she helped her slowly make her way downstairs, mouthing a concerned and reassuring, “Just hold on, the ambulance will be here soon.”
Feng Ann looked up at her with difficulty, “Thank you … for being willing to listen to my story.”
“What time is it that we’re talking about this?” Cheng Lydia didn’t have a good time.
The ambulance soon arrived and Cheng Lydia was taken to a nearby hospital with Chung Grace. The moment she was wheeled into the delivery room, Feng Ann suddenly stepped out and took Cheng Lydia’s palm, looking at her with a pleading face, “Lim Toby is in ward 908 in the next building, go and see him. ”
Cheng Lydia doesn’t oblige and Feng Ann is wheeled into the delivery room.
Mrs. Lim and Lim Edith soon arrived and seeing Cheng Lydia, a look of surprise appeared on Mrs. Lim’s face as she looked into the operating room and asked, “Lydia, what are you doing here?”
Lim Edith, on the other hand, said coldly, “What else could it be? Can’t see my sister-in-law giving birth to my brother’s child.”
“Don’t be ridiculous.” Mrs. Lim glared at her.
Cheng Lydia hadn’t seen Mrs. Lim in a long time, and when she did, her eyes actually warmed up instantly. In her heart, Mrs. Lim was her family and the person who had once given her care.
It’s sad to think that she was trying to improve her relationship with Lim Toby by rubbing them together every day for different reasons. Lim Toby, who was determined to get rid of her, must have been sick of his mother’s osmosis, right?
Chung Grace, not used to hearing Lim Edith’s indifferent remarks, didn’t have the heart to say, “If it wasn’t for Lydia, your sister-in-law would probably have had her baby on the side of the road by now, and she’s full of shit.”
“You … she’s not that nice.”
“Okay, shut up all.” Cheng Lydia snapped out, pulling Chung Grace’s wrist, “Let’s go.”
“Lydia, thank you for sending Ann back.” Mrs. Lim said gratefully.
Cheng Lydia nodded and smiled, “Take care of yourself, Auntie.”
Was Mrs. Lim thinner than she used to be because of Lim Toby? She thought to herself.
After taking the elevator down from the delivery room, Cheng Lydia didn’t leave the hospital straight away, but sat in a chair at the entrance of the hospital and launched herself into a daze.
Chung Grace grabbed her cold little hand and surveyed her, “Lydia, why don’t you go up and see him, Feng Ann says his days are numbered and he won’t get a chance to see him if he doesn’t.”
“How could the time be numbered? He’s obviously always been in good health.” Cheng Lydia murmured.
“I’m really heartbroken and hard … for him to treat me like that.” She leaned on Chung Grace’s shoulder, tears streaming down her face.
“Everyone has everyone’s way of running their love, don’t cry.” Chung Grace patted her shoulder soothingly. Then she smiled, “It seems that Lim Toby he really loves you, we misunderstood him.”
“That’s the hard part for me.” Cheng Lydia looked at Chung Grace bitterly and said, “Grace, I’d rather he was really tired of me and forced me to sign divorce papers for another woman and threw me out of The Lim Family. i’d rather he was heartless to me than this outcome today!”
“I understand, I understand.” Chung Grace patted her on the shoulder and nodded.
Cheng Lydia eventually made her way to Ward 908.
When she walked in, Lim Toby was lying asleep in his hospital bed, and with just one look, the tears she’d managed to stop slipped back out of her eyes.
The last time she met him and Feng Ann at the supermarket, Cheng Lydia had noticed that he had lost some weight compared to before.
One of his hands grasped, seemingly holding something in it, and the other rested gently on the side of the bed.
Perhaps because of Feng Ann’s delivery, the ward was quiet and not even a single person was seen.
Cheng Lydia gently placed her palm over the back of his hand, trying to remove the object from his hand for him, and as the sleeping Lim Toby seemed to sense the disturbance of an outsider, his brow twitched and an old-looking cufflink rolled out of his palm and landed in Cheng Lydia’s.
Cheng Lydia picked up the cufflinks and found that they were the same personalized cufflinks that Chung Grace had brought back for her from Japan, which she had given to Lim Toby. She remembered that at the charity gala, Lim Toby’s cufflinks had caught on her dress and the other cufflink had fallen into her hands.
At the time when he wore the pair of cufflinks to the party, she thought it was strange, but now she realized that he valued the pair of cufflinks she had given him so much that he even held them tightly in his palm when he was sick.
She placed the cufflinks on the table and carefully grabbed his hand, heartbroken.
This is a man that she once truly loved and truly wanted to be with for the rest of her life.
As if sensing her sadness, Lim Toby sulked awake, and when he saw Cheng Lydia at his hospital bed, a happy smile spread across his thin face as he gazed at her and spoke, “Lydia, what are you doing here again?”
Again? So in his dreams, she comes often?
She gripped his hand tightly, and laid his palm against her cheek, “It’s not a dream, it’s Lydia really coming.”
Lim Toby’s face finally rose in surprise as he surveyed her in awe, still saying the same thing: “Lydia, what brings you here?”
What’s she doing here? Why had she come out of nowhere? Instead of surprise, he had bewilderment.
How could he be seen by her in this state?
“I came to see you.” Cheng Lydia blinked her teary eyes, trying hard to stop herself from shedding tears, and her grip on his palm tightened, “Lim Toby, I actually just imagined many scenarios of coming out, scolding you severely, chastising you, questioning why you pushed me away at the most critical moment and then turning your head away, never to see each other again in this life. But once I saw you afterwards, I couldn’t do anything but weep.”
“Why? Are you hurt for me?” Lim Toby smiled and stroked the top of her head, “Don’t worry, I’m still fine, aren’t I?”
“You can’t even speak with strength, do you call this being well?” Cheng Lydia’s tears fell once again, surveying the frail man and choking, “Why did you push me away, am I that heartless in your heart? At the beginning, when I was in the most difficult time, you accompanied me and helped me, now you are not well, yet you push me away, do you intend to make me have a bad conscience for the rest of my life?”
Lim Toby shook his head and wiped the tear tracks from her face with his fingers softly, “Because I don’t want to see you sad like this.”
“You’re so selfish.”